Yeah, so I'm still talking about Roundhouse

I basically can't talk about anything but theatre at this point in my actual life because I'm just so overwhelmed by it all. I copied all my rehearsal information for RHT and the opera into my calendar and then I just sat and looked at it for a little while. Basically at the end of December my life turns into afternoon/evening rehearsals at one my favorite places in the world. All that changes when I start classes in January is that I have class from 10am-12pm on Fridays before rehearsals with one of the most respected professionals in the area. Then at the end of February I switch to opera rehearsals in the afternoons and evenings. At the end of March/beginning of April, I add on some work attending meetings and rehearsals with the PM at UMD until the end of the semester in May. I mean, that's fine. That's only the most amazing semester of my life.

But I have no idea what's going to come after that... and I can prepare as much as I want but I just won't know until probably March or April. If I was getting paid to do all the things I'm doing in the next six months instead of paying, that could be my entire life. But I'm not. Getting paid, I mean. So what makes me think that my qualifications to work for free are going to be good enough to qualify me to be work for actual, living wages? Nothing, I guess, but a sense of purpose that I never had before I was 18 years old. Man, could I be more annoying with my constant review of my life's purpose and the same, unwavering conclusion that this is what I need to do?